When I was a student and an older friend of mine would graduate I used to call them with the normal, “Mabrook, so how does it feel?”
Normally, they’d say, “What? Graduation?”
Considering my high level of nathala-tude, I’d answer, “No. Unemployment.”
So yesterday, I finally gave in my resignation letter alhamdullilah, and my friends couldn’t help asking me the famous question, “So how does it feel?”
To be frank with you, unemployment feels like graduation all over again. You know that feeling when you’re wearing your black robe, the music starts, the doors open and you’re walking down the steps…I felt exactly the same. The apprehension, the uncertainty….It was as though I was going back in time to that one moment in my life when I felt school was done for good and my career was about to start.
And I find it ironic, how I really thought school was done for good, until my career began and I asked myself, “Oh my God? This is it? This is why I killed myself at school?” It’s similar to the way somebody explained it, “Jobs nowadays have become such a routine, it’s like you wake up on Monday morning, drive to work, put your brain into the computer, do your job, go home, put your brain into the TV, go to sleep, then you wake up on Tuesday morning, take your brain from the TV, drive to work, put your brain into the computer, do your job, go home, put your brain into the TV, go to sleep, then you wake up on Wednesday morning, forget to take your brain from the TV, but since you don’t use it at your job anyway, it doesn’t really matter.”
There are those who call me weak for not being able to weather the storms of a corporate job, but then there are those who understand that I value myself more than the paycheck I was receiving. There are some people who think I’m going to regret it, exiting the job market with no experience, but after everything that I went through in my workplace, I don’t think I’ll regret it. I might regret not making a move earlier. Personally, I really don’t see myself applying for another job again, and the only thing I really want to do is break out on my own and start my own business.
And I really believe I would start out on my own insha’Allah, because after all, we don’t just live in the age of change but we live in the age of transformation, and to start out on my own, I wouldn’t really need the money, I’ll only need that one single idea…or what I like to call my “Million Dollar” idea.
And you never know…maybe one day you’ll be working for me.
Yesterday, a friend reminded me of a quote, “Life must be lived forward, but can only be understood backwards.”